week 14 already

hello...

i had every intention of making a video first thing this friday. however, it was my 25th birthday on friday...which is why i weighed myself on thursday morning to give myself a "proper" birthday present. i was 161lbs as of thursday and i hope that this weekend of ICK galore including alcoholic beverages didn't mess me up too badly. my stomach is really taking a toll on me though. i think the best birthday present i could have given myself (and i did!) was knowing that i'm not that glottonous eater anymore. i feel like world war 3 is happening in my stomach and i can't wait to get back to "regular food" that makes me feel good again. and even smelling that fried food i used to crave, or looking at luscious desserts makes me remember how horribly it feels to have to run to the bathroom or lay down when i could be doing something.

also...water. i deliberately chose anything but water for the whole weekend and i was downing sodas like you wouldn't believe. i am sooooo thirsty that 100 oz doesn't seem like enough for tomorrow. but i'll get there. this weekend is another party weekend (my brother's 18th birthday and my mom's birthday too) but i'm content at this point to be the chaperone/designated driver/party-planner and that's it. i'm anxious to see if i get cravings this week.

anyway, one more week until spring break...and then i'm home for 10 days. i'm not going to my grandparents' house, so i'm a little worried about the extra time i'll have on my hands...but after this weekend, i'm fairly confident i won't be tempted to binge. whew. okay, more next week!

yo gano

i WON!!! i am the BIGGEST LOSER!!! sweeeeeeet success!

week 13

down 3!!! sweet. that makes a total of 33 lbs lost! go me. my birthday is a week from today, so after i weigh in, i'll be enjoying myself with food for the day. i'm hoping to get some swimming, dancing and also exercising in too, so not completely off program. :)

week 12

no video this week. i'm still at 165. i need to stay away from alcohol, bad foods, and excuses. more later this week.

goal for this week: not using food as a social activity...which is hard when you're going out almost every day of the week and weekend. ugh.

week 11

wow, so i'm still at 165, thankfully. i had a crazy week and with the food and alcohol i consumed, i am so happy i stayed the same. i do need to include a video though...little embarrassing, but i'm glad i had the forethought to make it, even though i wasn't in the right state of mind. oh well. still at 165. better next week because i am zumba-ing and jogging like crazy. oh yeah, and food is a lot better now too. lol.

week 10

thank god i made it!!! but being on plan definately paid off this morning. down 4!!! woot.

struggles...

so, i've tried a lot already. today is really tough. i've got a house full of goodies and i'm trying to take my mind off of them. here are how my thoughts have been so far:

put it off:
eat your afternoon snack (it was delicious, but not chocolate in the least)
walk your dogs (we couldn't take the kids out for recess because of the extreme cold)
read (read what? cook books? ugh)
chat with people online (i'm home early from school, no one is online for at least an hour)
clean (i did laundry and cleaned my room yesterday. the rest of the house is done by my mom since i'm not living at my apartment anymore)
bake snacks for the kids for cmts (YEAH RIGHT...bake. i've got the recipe for paula dean's "gorilla bread" sitting on my counter. yeah, that will help.)

make excuses:
i've lost weight when i cheated before (although i never got into sweets before)
i deserve it after working so hard
i worked out TWICE last night, so it should be fine.
i can't possibly gain much in 1.5 days
my brother eats all of that stuff and still stays thin, maybe my metabolism is like his at this point
i already resisted german chocolate cake cupcakes AND boston cream cupcakes this week, i deserve a little.

pump yourself up:
you are NUMBER 1 for biggest loser, don't spoil it!
you need new clothes because your old ones are falling off. get ready to throw those away!
you get weighed in 2 days!
you get to go out with friends this weekend, that will be your indulgence, NOT FOOD!
you have lost 31 lbs in just over 2 months. summer is around the corner!
your application to be a jazzercise instructor is sitting on the nightstand, waiting for you to hit your goal of 150lbs.

my conclusion:
GO SHOPPING FOR NEW CLOTHES. there, and maybe i'll get a black coconut coffee with 2 splenda on the way.

***so never think i don't have cravings, i definately do.